15 Ways to Boost Self-Loathing and Self-Deprecation!

You have achieved Self-Deprecation and the righteous term "ASS" if you carry out the following easy steps:

1. Listen NOT to yourself.
2. Do whatever OTHERS tell you to.
3. Do NOT voice your opinions.
4. Keep your mouth SHUT.
5. Let OTHERS walk all over you.
6. Do EVERYthing in your power to please OTHERS.
7. Restrict YOURSELF from opportunities.
8. Keep yourself BOTTLED up.
9. Actively support OTHERS in spite of wrongdoings.
10. Hurt OTHERS in the process (Refer to 9.).
11. Do NOT fee bad if someone hurts YOU.
12. Do NOT mention anything good in your life.
13. Thank God that he's blessed you with OTHERS.
14. Listen and only listen, do NOT speak
15. Listen to this crappy post.


Note:
If you care to notice the word "OTHERS" can be referred to as "friends", but then I thought, wait a minute if they let you do this to yourself and somehow they are in a small way responsible for your situation then how in the world could they be written, spoken about/to, referred, thought of, described as a FRIEND.
Yes, they are not FRIENDS, what they are though, are the OTHERS (I couldn't resist but it sounds so cliched and movie-like... Anyway back to the point) . They dont care about honey, they're with you because you are an easy target, the little black lamb they can push around, influence, control to do their bidding, take out their frustration on. The problem with the OTHERS/bullies/pushovers are that they themselves are insecure because they like you need something/someone to control and have greater weaknesses. The fact remains that what you truly believe in and do for the OTHERS is too big and good for them to do it theirselves.
So, if you think life is aplayground for them think again. They probably have itworse than you do. If you notice even in the movies and cartoon clips alot of the bullies end up crying at the end of the show/movie because they have overturned by their "underlings"/"bitches"/pushed-ones. What is their biggest strength is an even greater weakness. Its just like in I Robot when the robots lost control and got at the humans. Something like that. So yeah, think about it.

Dont be pushed. Walk. Head high. Cool. Independent. Good. Help them instead. Oops. I mean help the OTHERS. Where else do you think cynicism comes from?

"Reason can wrestle and overthrow terror".
-Euripides (Greek Playwright)

Understanding - An Interminable Gift.. Curse?

I hate Understanding.
You feel the usage.
You feel the rejection.
You feel the taking-for-granted-ness.
You feel the patience running out like gatorade for a marathon runner.

I love this quality otherwise. When you use it for the people around you and then when they return the same, the feeling.. Theres nothng like it.

I love being Understanding.
You feel appreciated.
You feel at peace with the people.
You feel loved and valued.
You feel... Good.

Understanding and being understood. If everyone in the world could do it, we couldve probably been best friends with The American Ex-President or even the sworn enemies of the rest of the world, the terrorists. If we could all just get along and try to "figure" things out maybe then we could achieve 1/10th of the much fabled "World Peace". If we could all just sit, relax and have pleasant conversations with the politicos and over-interfering paparazzi, synthetic-plastic-ated workers of the acting industry and whatever different kinds of people in the world, over a nice hot cup of chocolate.

But this is a dream that will only remain a dream. As long as there are human beings walking around on this planet, strife, corruption, enemity and most of all misconception and misundertsanding is bound to take place. I will never regain certain friendships or relations because of the buggering fact that some asshole took me in the wrong way, had way too much ego to clear it out with me, and started a rampage against me. Tell me this, since "possession of bodies or souls" is not possible, how the HELL do you know what is going on in the other person's head? Where do you get the GALL to assume things about another's intentions or doings?Do you know what is going in that person's head at that given time? NO. Exactly, if you dont bother to find out how in God's name are things to be sorted out? And if you know that person's probably one of the fewest individuals with that kind of understanding how dare you expect everything from one end? And especially when you know eachother since eons and you still get dumped on because of something relevant and life-changing even for the other pserson.
It is irrational, childish, immature, sad, pathetic, gullible, stupid, piteous, juvenile when your 18 years old or above and can still possess the ability to think like an ass. A hind-leg-kicking, lazy, squirming, stubborn "ass".



.. Oh boy, that was way too much emotion overpouring out there. Way too much personal bull. Sorry folks. But thats just the way it is. Poeple dont realize or appreciate the value behind the "understanding". Open you eyes men and women. Obeserve your friends and family. Especially your family. Do you notice how much they really do for you? And what about your friends, havent they done enough? Have you ever thought about them once about what they may be going through about how much they've listeend to you weep and pour your soul out and how many times they've made you laugh or even changed the outlook of your day? Do you think about them when youre not busy wondering about Your crap like shopping or eating or Your schedule, Your work, or whatever? Do you not notice that this extra-elongated, without-many-attractive-letters, 10 letter word UNDERSTAND has a complete power of its own?

You probably think I'm babbling about a whole load of bull. But just stop and think. About your friends, family and those who've stuck by you through the most trying times of your life and who can assess so many problems and help solve them for you, those who have taken your bull and havent complained (much), those who've exercised some small contribution in the kind of person you've become.

So ladies and gentlemen, I hope you "understand" what I'm trying to tell you. Get to know them. Those people who know you for so long. Who give and give and dont expect. Im truly sorry, I mean my heart goes out to those who still read this post and cant figure a fraction of dog poop of this post and what kind of message I am trying to give out. Thats just... Sad, frankly. But then again one's life, one's wish. So try to do this small soemthing, it'll probably do you alot of good. This post wasnt out to make you feel bad or guilty but to let you think. And really realize. Thank you.




"No law or ordinance is mightier than understanding."
- Plato

Ascertainment

Ok Im going way over board about this whole trying to reduse things in my life down to certainty. To tell you the truth i think its still too early in my life to know who i am and know what im doing or going to be doing in the next 3 years or whatever. However if i start early i gain the edge and its a massive advantage because then you can get to hone yourself, your talents and know where you lie.
For a few years now I have noiced myriad changes in me and the people around me. My multitudionus demands of having a great big group of friends, fun free time and Im coming back to it again, the desire to surround myself with as many people as i can have diminished down to just a good happy life being able to do whatever i want and wanting to experience and soak in as much of the world as i possibly can..
Prioroties change with passing of time. When you were in primary school it was all about "will i be able to particpate in the annual day?" or "will i come first in the 100m race?" and then when we move onto secondary its all "i cant finish my homework in time!" and "i have submissions and elocutions, competitions and rehearsals!" and then we come into college life we go on and on about "i like him but what if he doesnt like me back? What am i going to do?" and "i need to think about what im going to be doing in the next 3 or 4 years becoause thats what will be defining my future years".. blah blah..
Change is inevitable. But too much of it revamps you completely and sometimes makes you wonder is this possibly the right patht that i have chosen?
I'd wonder if the change is due to the external factors of our environment. Humans evolve and adapt largely due to the environment. But my opinion alot of your own instincts and whatever goes own within you is what is in charge of the change. Because in the end the people you surround yourself with somewhat reflects your ownself. It is because of You that they are they with You, because of You. you are in your current situation. In the end it is You, yourself who is reponsible for, well YOUrself! ;)
This is tiring to read over and over again so ill deviate. My point being whatever disappointment you may end up with or appraisals and accomplishments in your life are because of what you yourself have done.
Your opinions and perceptions change because of influence as well (external factors) and in a given amount of time you will change the kind of people to whom you are tied to. Family may never change or fade because it is they who have witnessed these changes in you since day one of your bed-wetting, nappy-wearing, potty-going life to whoever you are today!
Im pretty unsure as a person, sucky at time-managment. Cant make decisions on time, selfish, wastes way too much time thinking about what other people think of me based on those late decisions, wants to do way too many things life may not be able to offer due to the whole humans being mortal and all that,makes shoddy promises, self-depreacting, comes off too harsh and strong in an argument, wonders about "the purpose of life".. Now i simply osund plain weird.. :P
But there are sound things about me too. When i finally do make that decision i stick it right through the end and make the best out of it, people i really love will always be protected by my security services, weird in a good way. If you notice i have noted down barely any plus points to myself, this is when we go back to the "self-deprecating" point mentioned earlier.
All of this is me NOW. Before i "changed" (including external/internal factors) i was a dominating, horribly self-centered than even now, regardless of consideration of feelings of anyone else's, wouldnt know the difference between wrong or right as long as it was in my interest. Jeez... I could go on!.. But i have always liked the fact that i was never too pricey, too materialistic. I dont know, with the kind of qualities i used to represent thats hard to believe, even for me.
For me even my dancing and sketching and imagining took such a turn once i was out of that shell. I took the middle path from the fork of possibilities and suddenly everything seemed to churn in front of my eyes. I lost my best friend not without any other consequences or minor sufferings and setbacks but i gained so much more than i could have ever imagined. I regained two new ones from my old dominating days :P . It felt like they were there all along but i just had a foggy windscreen and didnt notice them. Dancing helped regain a part of me that was lost after the loss i felt for my friend, it helped give me some time for myself and let me think things over once again. I felt that i had a stab at a new social life through dancing. I got to meet new people. People i actually liked and not with false pretenses or gains. I got out of the "introverted" category of people and learned to talk for the first time. Those days i recall with a fondness but then i was so scared out of my wit. I guess all of it was worth it. I felt like a broken string of a guitar repaired and reassembled, rethought. I realised people arent all the same. Some of them give more than just second chances and dont expect anything in return and give so much that it overwhelms your entire being. And I wondered... "How? Why? What have i done for them? Is this a cruel illusion?" This took some gut to adjust to and get back to the field of reality in my newly rejuvenated self.
When i learnt of this new genre of people who also included my two new greatest of friends, I made a promise to myself that I will also try to provide that kind of safe haven to those who have experienced or gone through a similar emotional turmoil as i or even worse. If someone can be so conceited in one point of time or inaffectionate it doesnt mean its the same way through out their life. Impressions can change. A person can never completely remain the same.

Because if I got to have that everyone else deserves it too and thats the best way to help.
This small chapter has been reduced to some amount of certainty. Some small amount i didnt say entirely . Though im still trying to search for myself

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